Thursday 25 February 2016

Goodbye.

After a long time thinking, I have made the somewhat difficult decision to no longer continue with my blog here on blogger.
It definitely wasn't an easy decision for me to make as I've had and been running this blog for 5 years now. I admit, I wasn't as frequent with my posts as I wish I could have been, but I was still happy with this little area of the internet that belonged to me. Until I realised that the blogger community just isn't right for me. It's an extremely crowded platform that many people turn to because they want to become the next "Zoella". So I have made the decision to move my blog to another platform and continue posting as frequently as possible over on there.
The place I'm moving my life to is WordPress and my first post will be being posted at midday today.

So I will leave you with the link to my new blog for you to check out if you fancy. But, in a month or so I will be setting everything on this post to private and possibly closing it down completely.

So thank you to Blogger for being my way of expressing every single thing I couldn't express to anyone else because I had no friends I could express them to. And goodbye.

My new blog


Tuesday 26 January 2016

Big changes ahead!

I know, I know, it's been a heck of a while since I last posted on here. But, I have got a reason, and that reason is university. I have had so much work to do over the last three months that I have barely had chance to sit down and relax. So, I took some time off of my blog but I'm now back. I did have some posts planned for over Christmas but I got so caught up in the festivities with my family that I completely forgot to post any of my drafts (what a dope).

So, as we've just started the new year, I'm going to fill you guys in on my resolutions for this year and some reasons for these resolutions.

Resolution 1:  As you all know, I am currently at university. I am now half way through my second year. But, what you may not know is that since I started university, I have had this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that something just didn't feel right. And it wasn't until recently that I figured out what that feeling was. I hate university. Don't get me wrong, living away from my parents and having freedom is amazing, and I feel like it really has allowed me to grow up a lot more than I ever expected to (considering I have the mental age of a 40 year old lady. I'm legit a mother hen without any friends to share my wisdom with). But, I have a very strong dislike to every other aspect of university life. I hate the long nights of stress because I'm just god awful at my course and no matter how much I try to get better at it, it just isn't good enough. I hate the sleepless nights because all everyone else seems to be concerned with is going out clubbing and having loud music on till around 1am, then getting back at 4am and continuing the loud music. I hate having really loud neighbours that think they're the next big DJ. I hate getting business cards from someone who sells drugs. I hate having to walk down three flights of stairs with my laundry basket, going outside in the freezing cold rain to the laundrette only to find out that there are no washing machines available. I hate it all. So yes, one of my biggest plans for this year is to drop out of university. This is scary. It's terrifying for me because I don't know what I'm going to do with my life once I do drop out, and the constant questions from everyone, all the concerned family members, all the curious friends that ask me what I'm going to do once I've dropped out, what my plans are after uni, if I'm going to go back to college or start a new uni course in September, it's just enough to push me into a dark, damp pit of panic. I feel pushed into a corner, like I need to have my life figured out in the next couple of months before I drop out otherwise I'll just be even more of a failure. But, all I can say to them at the minute is that I don't know what I'm going to do with myself, that all I know is that after spending a year and a half doing criminology and psychology, is that I don't want to spend my life doing criminology and psychology. This course doesn't open all kinds of doors; it opens doors that lead to a life of "fighting crime" and dealing with criminals or mentally ill people, and that is definitely not what I want in life.

Resolution 2:    To completely throw myself into the things I love doing. I find myself putting off my hobbies for things that I deem important at the time. But, when I think back at the things I put it off for, it's really not as important as it seemed at the time. Everyone should make time for the things they enjoy otherwise they'll just end up unhappy. And, considering I've spent the last year and a half unhappy, I really want this year to be different. I think what happened to make me really think about this was what a lecturer said in November. Now, I can't remember the reason why he said what he said but what he said impacted me quite a lot and it's something I've thought about almost every day since. what he said was basically that in our heads, everyone things their singing sounds like Adele or Jessie J, when in reality, we're all pretty shit, because if we weren't shit at singing, we wouldn't be sat in that lecture. I don't think that I'm the worlds best singer but, I'd like to think pretty decent at it considering my history on the topic. But, it's something I've never tried to do as a profession, and since school, I barely ever do it in my spare time either. I have just came to realise that when applying for a job, whether you think you'd be good at that particular job or not, you throw yourself into it and just try your best. But, with singing, I've always said that it's not worth trying because it's not an easy thing to get into, but, every job is hard to get into, nothing comes easy, so why not try?

Resolution 3:   Spend more time with the people I care about. This one is possibly one of my biggest aspirations for this year. Last year, I saw my best friends, 4/5 times. Which is god awful. But, I guess that that's what happens when you don't live near each other. But this year, I really want to see them more. I have spent the last two weekends with them and they've been the best weekends I've ever had and I feel so much closer to them. I've known the for three years now and never really felt that close to them but I now feel like if I have a bad day, I could talk to them about it and that really is the best feeling.

Resolution 4:   Get a job. I have never had a job. and my only experience was being a teachers assistant for a class of 3/4 year old children. Which was amazing and I loved it but it isn't going to help me get a job in a city. But, I need to get a job fairly soon so if anyone has any tips on creating a 'super CV', that'd be fab.

Resolution 5:   Move in with my best friend. At first the plan to move in together was something we joked about but it's out legitimate plan now, and is something we're going to do later in the year. Kinda part of the reason I need a job too ;)

I hope you enjoyed this post, and have had a lovely day!  I'll see you in the next one!

xoxo

Sunday 1 November 2015

My Month in Pictures

October is quite possibly my favourite month of the year. There's my birthday, halloween and the changing of the leaves, the crisp, clean, fresh air. So, this is my month in pictures. Well, my favourite pictures from October. Enjoy 🎃








Wednesday 21 October 2015

Autumn Haul!

This is one of those rare occurances were I managed to buy enough crap to write a haul. This probably won't happen much, so enjoy this while it lasts.
Okay, so in this haul, I have products from Superdrug, River Island, Primark New Look, and H&M.

All of the products I mention will be linked at the bottom of the post. And, can I just say, I am beyond happy that Primark finally has a website worth going on! I mean, it's taken them long enough but they finally have a website that lists more than 5 of their products. It's amazing, I actually went on there before to see if I could find a t-shirt to go with a skirt that I bought this morning.

Okay, so my first stop was River Island. Now normally this shop is too expensive for me but, I was after a new bag and river island bags are just a thing of sheer beauty! Okay, so I went in there with two bags in mind, both look the exact same except one is faux leather and the other was faux sued. I did want the faux sued one but they didn't have it (typical & just my luck). But I guess it doesn't matter because they are identical in appearance and cost the exact same - which is £25. I can't find the faux leather bag on the website anymore so I have linked the faux sued one at the bottom of this post.

I then went into Superdrug and got myself some new (and much needed) make-up. 
The first I did when I went into the store was pick up a Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge. I have owned a beauty blender in the past and really not liked it but, this, it is amazing. My foundation goes on so beautifully when I use it and it gives such a flawless finish and it is definitely something I will repurchase. It cost £5.99.
One of the main things I wanted to get were lipsticks and I found myself completely drawn to the L'Oreal Colour Riche Collection PrivĂ©e range, all of the colours in the range are gorgeous, but when I went into superdrug, they were on 3 for 2, so I picked up three gorgeous shades of red - Blake, Julianne and Liya. All three shades I have worn to death since I bought them. They are such beautiful colours with amazing pigmentation. There are however, downsides. One being that they are super drying, so make sure you apply lip balm before you apply the lipstick. The other downside is that the staying power is not the best. I found myself reapplying it so often that it was rather irritating. But, that was when I was wearing it all day. So, maybe it would be better for a night out or an event that is only going to last a couple of hours. Other than those two faults, they're gorgeous lipsticks that I will most likely re-purchase. Individually, each lipstick costs £6.99.
The main thing I have been in dire need for, for months is a new foundation. When I buy foundation, I always buy one I've never had before, so this time, I decided to pick up L'Oreal True Match Foundation in the shade Rose Vanilla. Which, since buying it and using a few times, I think is actually just a tad too dark for me but, it's a really nice foundation and goes on like silk. And, even better, I can barely tell I'm wearing foundation when I have it on, it leaves the skin feeling slightly sticky/tacky but, after a couple of minutes, it sets really nicely and leaves the skin feeling really smooth. It cost £9.99.
The next thing I picked up was a product I had heard so many great things about and pretty much every female youtuber I watch has raved about at some point in the last year or so. So, I picked one up and I can honestly say, it definitely deserves the hype that surrounds it. And, that product is the Maybelline Age Rewind Eraser Eye Concealer. I bought it in the shade Light and it gives such a beautiful lift for under the eye and literally brightens up the face. And, considering it only costs £7.99, you get a pretty amazing product for the price.
The last two products I picked up were the Maybelline Lash Sensational and the Maybelline Eye Studio Master Precise Liner. The mascara is amazing. I have seen it compared to the Benefit Rollar Lash and now that I own them both, I'd definitely say it deserves that comparison. It makes my eyelashes look so long and full at a fraction of the price of the benefit one. It only costs £7.99. The eyeliner, is pretty darn good, which if I'm being completely honest, I wasn't expecting it to be. I also wasn't expecting it to be an actual liquid eyeliner, I thought it was just a pen liner, but nope, it's a proper liquid liner. Which did take some getting used to - it's been a while since I've had to wait for my liner to dry, considering I've used a gel liner for the past year. I can honestly though, I will most likely re-purchase this eye liner. It is definitely worth the price considering it costs £5.99.

After being after a new parka for a few months, finding the perfect one in Primark was just a dream. The coat cost £35 - which for a parka, is pretty darn amazing. And, I know Primark has this reputation of being a clothes shop that sells shit quality clothing. Which, might well be true for some of the clothes but this coat, it is beautiful. The (faux) fur is so soft and the coat itself is the perfect thickness - keeps me nice and cozy on cold days.

So from New Look, I picked up these absolutely gorgeous boots. I had been after a pair of boots like this for a couple of weeks and wanted a pair last year as well but never found any. But anyway, I saw a pair in Primark for £20, which I thought was pretty good but I wanted a pair that were going to be comfier and last a bit longer so I had a look around and found these from New Look which are completely identical to the ones that Primark are currently selling. You can also get them in tan and maroon and I will most likely go back and get a pair of the tan ones as they will look gorgeous with a pair of blue jeans and a nice jumper and scarf. But, right now I just wanted a pair that goes with everything and I've literally lived in them since I got them. I've found myself coming up with excuses just to leave the flat just so that I can wear them. I got these for £27.99. Unfortunately, I ordered my pair in store and they told me I got the last pair, so they aren't on the website any more, but, they do have a pair similar for a little bit more money so I will link that pair below.

The last item I picked a skirt that I saw in Lucy and Lydia's video this morning. (Which I will also link below) As soon as I saw this skirt, I knew I just had to have it. It's not really something I would normally go for but I don't know, I just felt so drawn to it. Lately I have wanted to dress more "girly", and I felt this would be the perfect thing to help me achieve that. However, now that I have it, I have no idea what to wear with it (So any advice on that would be much appreciated). The original price of the skirt is £29.99 which is definitely not a price I would normally pay for a skirt, but, it is currently on sale for £20. Which is pretty good. So, I went in store to pick it up, and they only had one left and it was my size. And, it had a £10 sale sticker on it. So, I managed to get that amazing skirt for £10.

Anyway, that is the end of this one. I hope you enjoyed it. All products mentioned will be listed below. Goodbye! xoxo

Products Mentioned:
River Island Bag - http://www.riverisland.com/women/bags--purses/cross-body-bags/black-suedette-cross-body-tassel-handbag-666080
Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge - http://www.superdrug.com/Real-Techniques/Real-Techniques-Miracle-Complexion-Sponge/p/742258#.Vifp5X6rTIU
L'Oreal Colour Riche Collection PrivĂ©e Blake - http://www.superdrug.com/L%27Oreal-Paris/L%27oreal-Colour-Riche-Collection-Priv%C3%A9e-Red-Lipstick-Blake/p/314611#.Vifkon6rTIU
L'Oreal Colour Riche Collection PrivĂ©e Julianne - http://www.superdrug.com/L%27Oreal-Paris/L%27oreal-Colour-Riche-Collection-Priv%C3%A9e-Red-Lipstick-Julianne/p/314618#.Vifkpn6rTIU
L'Oreal Colour Riche Collection PrivĂ©e Liya - http://www.superdrug.com/L%27Oreal-Paris/L%27oreal-Colour-Riche-Collection-Priv%C3%A9e-Red-Lipstick-Liya/p/314619#.Vifkq36rTIU
L'Oreal True Match Foundation - http://www.superdrug.com/Make-Up/Face/Foundation/L%27Oreal-True-Match-Foundation-Rose-Vanilla/p/546204
Maybelline Age Rewind Eraser Eye Concealer - http://www.superdrug.com/Maybelline/-Maybelline-Age-Rewind-Eraser-Eye-Concealer-Light/p/654050#.VifwcH6rTIU
Maybelline Lash Sensational - http://www.superdrug.com/Make-Up/Eyes/Mascara/-Maybelline-Lash-Sensational-Mascara-Very-Black-1/p/348705#.Vif2gn6rTIU
Maybelline Eye Studio Master Precise - http://www.superdrug.com/Maybelline/Maybelline-Eye-Studio-Master-Precise-Liner-Black/p/355050
Primark Parka  - http://www.primark.com/en/product/olive-faux-fur-lined-parka-coat,R35397117114818
New Look boots - http://www.newlook.com/shop/shoe-gallery/view-all-boots/black-knit-cuff-lace-up-boots-_349628301
Lucy and Lydia's video - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykvPm0Rv6L8
H&M Textured Skirt - http://www.hm.com/gb/product/00366?article=00366-I





Friday 16 October 2015

My September favourites!

Okay, okay, I missed September. I didn't post at all. I did however, have a monthly favourites planned out but never had the time to actually finish it. So, I'm going to post it now.


Okay, so the weather was pretty toasty throughout September so I didn't wear much makeup - who really wants to sweat off their foundation an hour after putting it on though, really? - But, the makeup I did wear, I treasured.
The main thing I loved throughout September was the "Archery Brow Tint and Precision Shaping Pencil" by Soap and Glory in the shade "Brownie Points" (Find it here!). I know, I know, this same product was in my last monthly favourites, but, surely that just shows how much I love it? There is however, a difference in the reason why I love it this time around. Last month, I was all about the tint side to it - but, that was mainly because my pencil side was dried out when I took it out of it's box. However, since then, I have cut off the tip of the pencil and tried it again, and it works beautifully. It goes on so smoothly and gives such a lovely finish, and you really can get such a "natural" look (or as close to natural you can get when you're drawing over them) with it. I have been using both the pencil and the tint this month, sometimes accompanied with a matte brown powder for more definition and my brows come out perfectly every time. I really do highly rate this product and I don't think I'll be using anything else for a very long time. 

Another product that I've raved on about previously is the Benefit Rollar Lash (You can find it here!). This mascara is without a doubt the best mascara I have ever used. It definitely is worth the extra money - as it definitely is more than what I would normally pay for a mascara - but, the cost of it is also the reason why I probably won't be buying it again for a long time. (I am currently on the hunt for a cheaper dupe for it though so if anyone has any recommendations then let me know!!) But this mascara really does do everything that it says it does, my lashes look a lot longer when I use it as oppose to when I use a normal mascara, and I no longer need to use an eyelash curler before I apply my mascara because of how much it curls the lashes. It really is just an amazing product and if you have £20 to spend on a mascara, then I do highly recommend you check it out.

Painting my nails is something that I usually skip doing because I absolutely HATE doing it. I love having pretty nails, but waiting for the polish to dry is so tedious so when I can, I normally buy some elegant touch nails and glue them on (then pick them off a week later, but that's not the point). But, in September, I picked up a gorgeous nail polish by Essie called fifth avenue (you can find it here!). It is the most beautiful orange-red shade, and it glides onto the nail so nicely and dries pretty quickly as well (which is a bonus in anyone's book, let's be honest). It is literally the only colour I wore on my nails throughout al of September and I will probably be wearing it throughout October as well, it is just so pretty!  

Okay, lipsticks are my staple, I cannot go without a lipstick and 9 times out of 10, I have a lipstick in my bag no matter where I'm going. I usually wear red/berry toned lipsticks but, a couple of months ago, I picked up two nude shades. One of which, doesn't suit me at all, the other, I have been wearing every day throughout August and September. And, that lipstick is Rimmel Kate Moss in the Shade 3 (Find this beauty, here!). This lipstick is gorgeous brown/nude shade, it is so creamy and lasts pretty darn well considering it only costs £5.50. It is such a lovely every day lipstick, that you could wear to basically anything, any occasion, whether that is going to a wedding or just popping to the shop for a loaf. And, not gonna lie, it makes you feel pretty great too because of how gorgeous it looks on. 

Okay, onto non-beauty items. Let's start with TV. I binge watched so many netflix shows throughout September it's actually pretty embarrassing but, the shows I did love watching are gossip girl and the us office (which has sadly been removed from UK netflix now *sad face*). Gossip Girl has been such an unhealthy obsession that it genuinely did start to worry me. It genuinely got to the point were I had to stop watching it because I had gotten too obsessed (being serious, I had watched 38 episodes in 8 days), but, I literally adore this show. I still haven't finished watching it but that is mainly because I moved back to uni and have had to spend most of my time doing work and attempting to socialise (and I've been binging more shows, ngl). And, The US Office. There are not many shows out there that are just my sense of humour (But, I'm more than happy to add to the list if anyone has any comedy show suggestions), the shows that are currently on that list though are: friends, scrubs, modern family, how I met your mother, parks and recreation and now, the US office. Watching this TV show is like watching my sense of humour splurge out onto a screen. It's sheer brilliance, I'm so glad I found it and I never want to be without it.

Okay, in terms of Youtube, the Youtuber I've enjoyed watching the most is VelvetGh0st. Her personality is a ray of sunshine. It's so refreshing to watch someone who is truly herself in both her vlogs and her main channel videos. Her vlogs are really lovely to watch. It's so nice seeing a youtuber just sit around and be themself to a camera, even if all they're doing is sitting watching netflix all day. it's real and it's lovely to watch. Check out gabby on both of her channels if you haven't already
Her Main Channel
Her Vlog Channel

Okay, music wise, I didn't really listen to anything different in September from what I listened to in August. However, the one thing I did listen to is WILD by Troye Sivan. That song is just sheer perfection. I absolutely adore it. Check it out if you haven't already! Here's the music video!

The last thing that I can wholeheartedly say that I enjoyed doing in September was long walks through parks and forests and taking beautiful pictures of nature. I did it so many times and those days are my best memories of the month.

Okay, so that was the longest monthly favourites I've ever done. I hope you all enjoyed reading it. Feel free to follow me on my many social media! I have a couple of posts planned out for the next few weeks so hopefully, I will have the time to actually write them and upload them for you guys!
 xoxo.

Sunday 13 September 2015

Day out at the park

So I recently took a trip to a local park, and some of the pictures I took there are so beautiful. Photography is something I used to really enjoy but I stopped having time for it when I went to college, but, three years later, I have rekindled my love. My favourite thing to take pictures of is definitely nature, it's always so beautiful, no matter the time of day or weather. So go ahead, and enjoy the beauty that is nature.

These two pictures, I am so happy with how they turned out, these flowers looked so petite and pretty, I just had to take pictures.

Purple used to be one of my favourite colours, So these flowers really stood out to me.- they're so pretty.


I'm not completely sure why, but I was so drawn to this tree, which might sound odd but, I just thought it looked absolutely beautiful surrounded by these gorgeous purple wildflowers.

This lake was so beautiful, both times I have visited, I have gotten some pretty amazing pictures, this one was my favourite out of them all though.


These were the friendliest swans I have ever came across, They came so close and were not phased at all by the three dogs I had with me.

Friday 11 September 2015

My bad bleach experience

Thursday 3rd September:

Okay, so I had a deep mahogany red with a purple undertone colour hair and I decided that I wanted a change before I started my second year of university. So I went to the shop and bought the same hair bleach that I always use and I went home. That night, I bleached my hair. I got my mum to do it so that my whole head would be covered evenly and she put the bleach on the same way it's always done and it was left on my hair for the same length of time I always leave it on for, however when it came to washing the bleach out, I found that large clumps of my hair was falling out. Now I have bleached my hair a couple of times in the past and this has never happened before so needless to say, I freaked out. My hair wasn't washing properly because all of the shampoo and conditioner was clinging to the hair that was falling out. So when I finally gave up, I went downstairs and sat in the kitchen. When my mum came in, I burst into tears and told her what had happened. My parents have been amazing through this. Which to anyone, might not seem like a big deal, but for me, someone who has fine, hair, and not much of it, it was a huge deal. I have lost large tufts of hair. And the only long parts left are all at the back.
So yeah, my mum. She was amazing, she combed through my hair to remove any loose hair that was left and told me to go and wash it again. When I came back down, my dad was gone and she told me she had gotten in touch with my auntie - who is a hairdresser - and that my dad had gone out to buy the keratin shampoo and conditioner my auntie told her that my hair needs. Yeah, I will be doing a review on the products that he bought me because be came back with a bag full of different things. 
But anyway, while i'm writing this (which won't be the day this is posted), it's the next day and I have sat in my pyjamas l day, putting keratin oil and conditioner in my hair every couple of hours to help give my hair back some moisture and strength. I have to admit that although this may seem small, and not a huge thing to anyone, it is to me. I l have not been able to look in a mirror without wanting go cry. My appearance is literally making me feel sick. I'm currently trying to pluck up the confidence to put actual clothes on and some makeup and be able to look in the mirror. And i'm also trying to build up the confidence to ask my auntie to come and cut my hair off. Because I want it all gone - which isn't just because of this, I wanted it all gone anyway, I just want more of it gone now. 
I just want to not feel repulsed anymore. I was only just getting comfortable wit my appearance and then it got knocked away. And I honestly have no idea what to do with myself. I refuse to leave the house. And would rather spend all day on my own and not see anyone. Because explaining to people why my hair looks the way it does and why I look depressed is just too much for me to handle. I have cancelled all plans that I had made because I can't bare to see anyone. 

Friday 11th September:

Okay, so it's now a week and a few days later and I figured I would write everything that happened in the last week in one post instead of doing an update everyday. 
So, the friday after half my hair fell out was the first day I washed it. I used the TRESemme Keratin Smooth shampoo and Conditioner  to wash my hair with. I did not use a hairdryer as I didn't want to further damage my hair, but, I did put the TRESemme Kertain Smooth heat protection spray in my hair to add more kertain to aid my hair in repairing, I then put the OGX Anti-Breakage Kertain Oil Instant Repair Weightless Healing  Oil  in my hair for added protection and to aid repairing. - I repeated this two days later. 

Monday 7th September: 

This was the first day that I braved the outdoors and the only way I managed it was because I hid all of my hair in a beanie - and because after two washes, most of the red patches in my hair had faded. So I hopped on a bus and visited my friends that live an hour away - This day also happened to be a day that the UK weather decided it wanted to pretend it was still the middle of summer, needless to say, I melted - especially with that beanie on. 

Tuesday 8th September: 

This was a pretty great day. I shoved all of my hair in a ponytail and took the dogs on a three hour walk - I will be making a blog post full of my pictures from this day and another day I spent exploring the same place as I got some pretty incredible pictures on both days. After the walk, I went to the hairdressers and got all of my hair cut off. Meaning that the majority of dead hair is now gone and I couldn't be happier - I also have a post coming up all about my hair transformation, so look out for that!

Wednesday 9th September: 

This was two days ago now, and on this day, I went out and bought this hair dye. It definitely didn't turn out as dark as I had hoped but, it came out okay and I will be dying it a darker brown in a few weeks but, I want to allow my hair a few weeks rest from any damage to give it a chance to repair itself as much as possible.  

So, that's it! If anyone has ANY tips on repairing damaged hair then please do let me know and I will be forever in your dept! 

xoxo